When you’re diagnosed, you’re handed two terrifying truths at the same time.

This could end you.

And the thing that might save you is going to cost you in more ways than one.

You agree to it all.

Not because you’re brave. Not because you’re strong.

But because you want to live.

And living comes at a cost.

There’s the physical cost. The way your body no longer feels like it belongs entirely to you.

The way it becomes a battlefield and a science experiment at the same time.

There’s the mental cost. The hypervigilance.

The scans. The waiting. The way every ache has a question mark attached to it. Missing the version of yourself who held a sense of safety in your body. The quiet trauma of it all.

The way your nervous system doesn’t always settle back down.

And for many, there’s the financial cost.

Deductibles. Co pays. Time off work. Careers paused. Savings drained. Bills that stack up while you’re just trying to stay alive. The quiet fear of wondering if you will be able to keep up with the cost of surviving.

People love the word survivor.

It sounds victorious. Triumphant.

But sometimes surviving looks like chronic side effects.

Sometimes it looks like anxiety that hums in the background and spikes without warning.

Sometimes it looks like medical bills that linger long after treatment ends.

Sometimes it looks like learning to function in a body that feels permanently altered.

You are grateful to be alive.

And you are allowed to grieve what it cost to stay that way.

Both can be true without canceling each other out.

Survival is not free.

It is earned with sacrifice.

And that sacrifice deserves to be acknowledged. Not minimized. Not

sugarcoated. Not wrapped in inspirational quotes.

Just honored.

Because surviving cancer isn’t just about not dying.

It’s about learning how to live again after everything it cost you.

Sometimes the future bothers me. Lord allow me to live without fear

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I didn’t fight cancer for me.

I fought because my kids still needed me.

I fought because of my grandkids.

I fought for my family.

I fought for love.

I fought it for you the reader.

I fought it because people needed to know that if you hold on to your faith and believe, you can move mountains.

Cancer was that mountain along with many others for me.

There were days I didn’t feel brave, pretty or strong.

I was weak, devastated and disgusted.

There were days I wanted to quit, but I kept going.

Cancer shatters your soul. It shows you what matters and who is truly there for you. It revealed who people were that I called friend.

It showed me that family matters despite our differences.

It’s time out for politics and judgment.

It’s time to love with all that I have left.

Cancer changed me.

Im already known as Princess Poppy but now im even softer.

Im more intentional.

I come with limits.

Here today gone tomorrow.

Forgive, love, smile, hug, kiss, have fun, build your faith and embrace who you are. Laugh people are so serious these days. Everything is not always a debate. Can we just be in one anothers presence.

Life happens to the best of us.

It doesn’t matter if you are fat, skinny, just right, white, black, Puerto Rican, or Asian.

Just be yourself.

And if you have survived anything traumatic, you are proof of the strength most people will never have to find.

Enjoy today🦋💕

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Father God we start off by giving thanks to you. Thank you for who you are. Thank you for the placement of our lives. We could have be born anywhere but placed us with love.

Lord I ask that you pour out your strength to the reader of this. Lord I ask that you give them the mind to endure those they care for.

Lord we often have those what about me moments when life is overwhelming, and that can be selfish at times.

Father I ask that you replace that with you peace. Lord thank you for making us who we are and in the capacity to deal or handle those you place in our care.

Caregiving is not easy and it takes sacrifice. Lord send the caring team help from time to time. Capture the tears that may fall when the house has closed their eyes for the night. I ask that you place compassion on the hearts of the ones we look after. Sometimes as they age they turn mean. Some knowingly and some unknowingly but Lord speak to our hearts. Don’t let what we do be in vain even though at times it feels like it.

Help us to keep our hearts right. Help us to not break when the layers of the world attack us from every side. Help us to keep a positive attitude when family doesn’t want to help. Maybe they were not built with the tools needed to perform the assignment.

Help us to look back when this season is complete and see what it was all about. Lord we trust you, honor you and praise you. Cover these homes in you blood. Provide the necessary services and financials need to provide the level of care that is needed.

Opened hard to penetrate doors. Send your angels.

This prayer I ask in your son Jesus Name Amen! ~ With love Talesha

My spirit man woke up praying for males that care for their parents and grandparents. Lord we just thank you on today. We send a covering to those men that are caregivers that feel as though their day of happiness will never arrive. Lord I pray you send their rib someone that understands where they are. Someone who is suitable for them. Lord heal their heavy heart. Allow them to not feel as though they were forgotten because they were selected to care for their loved ones. I thank them for even giving themselves for the assignment. I don’t know who needed to hear this but God hears your prayers. Lord we thank you on today and we cover all that is in a role of caregiving for their loved ones. Your rewards are far greater than the flesh. I pray for the endurance to continue smiling when they are mean and says hurtful things. I pray that you are surrounded by the angels. The Lord hear and sees your tears. There is a lesson in caregiving and sometimes it’s not easy sometimes it’s painful but count it all joy! I’m praying for your partner that to have the patience and the sincere understanding of what it is you do. Even if you’re the male that uses his finances to care for his mother or grandparents.
There is a sacrifice there. Bless you but you all don’t forget yourselves.
Caregivers need love to.
Stop being fearful. Stop rejecting you! Stop rejecting the women that love you no matter what. God is sending them but you are rejecting them because you of fear. God would not send them if He didnt know they were going to be a perfect fit. God is perfect and all knowing! You are not and that’s when you Trust God and the outcome.
Fear hallelujah will keep us from the partner that is supposed to give you your strength, pray you through, be available when you need a caregiver. Alright I’m done but I hope it makes it to who it was for!
We cover this prayer in Jesus name Amen🩵 Countree

Man growing up the things that mattered were the things that you could see, like your car, house, job, bad relationships, clothes, hair and money.
Stupid ish.

As you grow that shit don’t matter.

What matters most are the things you can’t see.

The love you share with others, your inner purpose, your comfort with who you are, where you are heading, the seeds you deposit.

God is jealous for real and life will happen to you causing you to seek Him.

Once you do that He provides.

We know how to worry and doubt well.

Don’t worry about your finances. Don’t worry about love. Don’t worry about what your children are doing. Once they are adults most of them are choosing the hard way to learn.
Guide them as you can, pray for them but trust the creator.

We need to trust and believe well but while we are doing that incorporate some action.

We will never know the why. We will never know why people were removed to soon. Why relationships didn’t work out . Why we lost it all. Why we had to be the one hooked on drugs, alcohol or sex. Why we were the one that had to spend time in prison. Why we had to go through but God still is in the midst of it all.

When life is good most folk still find a reason to complain.

All I’m saying on today is enjoy your time. Enjoy the now. Don’t let fear win. Stop allowing doubt to win. Stop inserting yourself where you shouldn’t be. The enemy wants to keep us right there. ~Countree

There is so much more.

Whose report do you believe?

Many are nonbelievers and that’s fine. Many have chosen their own path and that’s fine.

Imma sit this with you though.

Some will read it and some will keep scrolling.

But YOUR day for you to take your last breath is getting closer.

Count it all joy if you woke up today!

Matthew 7-13-14

Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.
14 But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.

Life takes work. Life’s challenges takes work to overcome.

There will always be test, after test, after test, but these test have a way of bringing us closer to God.

The narrative is the same in all religions. The players are just called something different. If you really want to talk about it.

No one religion is better than the other.

One thing that’s a fact, that you see and I see, we ARE DEAD longer than we are alive. That’s a fact!!!!

Therefore, what are you doing?
Are you living to bust hell wide open or are you passing your test to go in through the narrow way?

Life’s ish make you call out! Oh you will yell at the heavens!

It challenges us (at least it should) to do better. To want more for ourselves. We don’t have the time you think.

Get you some people that can pour into you in good and bad times.

What does your core look like? Are they dragging you to hell? (That’s a movie)

You still have time. Stop blaming folks and be accountable for your actions.

People say life is not a game. Well it is, will you get played, or will you win. Wide many will fit in.
Narrow only a few will make it!
Good things take work, patience, your time, dedication, trust and so much more.

You don’t need much to do bad. That shits easy.

Easy to get into and hard to get out of! Think about it!

Identify the warnings. His speaks to us. He meets us right where we are.

(He,She,It, Mother Earth,Energy,Allah,Yeshua) you get my point.

It’s not a bad thing. The end goal is forever. We’ve already said that’s the only fact we can see. Daily. Don’t miss it people. ~Countree
Ok I’m done.

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